June 12th, 2017
I have been going through a lot lately the other day I broke down in the middle of my class and had a panic attack I had to leave the class and calm down before I came back it took me most the class I went around and came back with 5 minutes left of class, when I came back I felt like everyone was staring at me which just rose my anxiety even more I feel like an outcast and everyone gives me weird looks. I haven’t been to any specialists as I feel like they will put me in some mental home. I’m scared of what is happening to me I need help but I’m scared to get help. I had another breakdown in my next class it just got worse and worse each time I thought the room was spinning I couldn’t feel anything. All the sounds in the room were slurring together, I just sat down in the middle of the gym an starred and put my head to my knees my teacher came over and asked me what’s wrong but I don’t know what’s wrong with me, I got up and ran into the bathroom an threw cold water in my face until I snapped out of it, once again when I went back into the gym I could feel everyone staring at me I was so nervous and on edge it was one of the scariest moments of my life. I started to have the breakdowns when I was younger but they went away they weren’t nearly as bad then, now it takes over my head and I have no power all I can do is wait until it’s over. What is this? I have no clue what is going on and I’m afraid if I tell anyone what’s happening to me they will call me “crazy” and no one will want to be near me. I don’t know what this is and im scared it has been going on too long and I need to at least find out what it is.